Flip-flops for the Week
The sun hasn't quite made up its mind yet about coming out in full force here in Oregon- must be those lingering students still around who haven't left. Yet despite the flippant weather throughout the day, I have donned flip-flops. No, not the spongy, strappy kind that A&F boys wear even in hurricane weather. I'm talking about how each day has been different from the previous, flip-flopping between a wonderful, productive day to utter crap.
Today I want to just stay home and hide. I have four reasons I wrote down on a post-it note at work that justify hiberating in a dark hole. In an effort to put some of my mistakes down and look at them in perspective, they only seem to haunt me more. And so I wrote "LET IT GO" across all of the items I listed. That helped for about 10 minutes. Now, I've pretty much resolved that today will be a solemn day that will have to be handled gingerly. I will minimize speech and activity so as to avoid saying or doing something more to add to my list in my head.
Who knew flip-flops could be so heavy to carry? The one perk to them is that it comes with humility as a fashion accessory. How many American Eagles or Abercrombies offer that?
Cards of Illumination
I have a bookmark on my office desk that is sort of like your birth horoscope. Based on what day and month you were born on, this gives a snapshot of what type of person you are and what things you can find success in.
Mine lists that I have a restless spirit and so traveling for a job is satisfying. It also states to discipline my mind for a positive attitude. "By releasing and letting go of negative mental patterns you can draw material success to yourself."
How about letting go of negative mental patterns for the goal in and of itself? Does slighting everything serve a great purpose? Has my bitching about my family or nation's treatment of me granted me anything of value?
Today I look back at myself and see that hatred closes me off to things and people. It radiates off my skin like asphault giving off heat on a summer day. I've always noticed that people who have a positive disposition seem more approachable and have a calming effect on those around them.
I agree with my bookmark on my desk. Only my goal to focus on the positive and constructive things in life will be done not for financial profit. If that comes from it, I won't complain. But my goal would be to not complain and dwell on injustices without constructive action simply because that is the only avenue in which effective change occurs and the self is given an honored voice.
